I’m going to preface this post by saying, that there is going to be A LOT of information that you probably don’t want to know, but it’s my blog and I do what I want. It’s also stuff that people have asked me about so I decided to blog about it. So, with that being said, let’s go!
It has been exactly one month since I finished radiation treatment *does happy dance*. I’m feeling really good actually. After radiation all I wanted to do was sleep, and that’s what I did. I was so tired the two weeks after. I would go to work and go home and sleep #washedlife.
My mouth healed the quickest. I stopped using the magic mouthwash about 5 days after radiation. It doesn’t hurt to talk anymore (I’m back runnin’ my mouth like it’s making me lose weight). My eating has gotten waaaayyyyy better. I’m back to eating in general, solids and a little bit of harder foods. The only thing with eating is that anything spicy or acidic irritates me so bad. It feels like salt on a wound and then it makes my ear throb. I’ve tried to eat some spice and that was an epic fail. I also, don’t have that many taste buds. Like, I can taste food, I can smell food (because it goes up into my nasal cavity), but it’s not as rich as I know it could be. Like Texas toast for example. Everyone loves Texas toast. When I ate it I could only feel the consistency of the bread, I couldn’t taste the garlic at all. It’s weird though. Some foods are different than others. Like I can’t have tomato sauce or ketchup but I can eat tomatoes *shrug emoji*. I’m really annoyed about the ketchup thing because I’ve been eating fries and potatoes but I can’t put ketchup on them *rolls eyes emoji*. The one bad thing with my mouth that’s been happening for about three weeks now is that my jaw will lock up when I talk or eat. It hurts, and it’s kind of embarrassing. It only stays locked for like half a second, but still it’s scary because you never know what’s going to happen. On the bright side, I sound more like myself than I have during these last 5 months which is a blessing.
My period has been beyond weird this whole time. I want to say July it skipped then it came at the end of August, then two weeks later in September, then October it came back with vengeance. All of my years having a menstrual cycle, I have never gotten cramps. I would normally get a back pain once for about five minutes, but then after that nothing. In October, I was bent over on the floor asking God “why me?” That was for a couple days. Now It’s November and its late *whoo shocker*. So I’m waiting for that and to see if those cramps were just a onetime thing (I REALLY hope they were).
When I tell you guys my pooping sucks, it’s an understatement. So, while I was doing radiation, the pain was getting really bad so I decided to pop some percs. I wasn’t wildin’ out, just like one a day. Now, when you take these types of medications, they make you constipated. I was taking a laxative with it but I guess I wasn’t taking enough because I was not pooping. If I was, it wasn’t a real poop. So I’ve been drinking smooth move tea to help me along. I know that because I wasn’t eating as much or the greatest (Quesadillas & Grill Cheese Sandwiches every day) that had something to do with my pooping, so now I’m just trying to get regular. Not popping bothers me. Right now I’m going (like a real go) every five days which is not enough, so that is why I’m doing the tea like every other day depending on what I got going on. If I know I’m going to be in the car for a while I won’t drink it. Oh, and I’ve been eating foods that have fiber in them. So we’ll see how this helps me out.
My face is clear now. Well not all the way, but waaayyyyy clearer than before. I bought the face like by Skin Buttr (skinbuttr.com) and that stuff worked SOOOO well. I want to say that my face cleared up within the first week. The burn mark was gone after two days. It’s amazing. It’s super moisturizing but doesn’t leave your skin oily and you can feel that it’s clean. I love that stuff. I also bought some witch hazel to rub on my face to help tone the dark marks. It seems to be working. Oh, and I use glamglow overnight moisturizing treatment and their nude moisturizer. I love the moisturizer because it makes your skin look so vibrant. The one good thing that came out of this was that all of the hair on my face is gone. Do you know how much money I'm saving on not waxing?! It's amazing. I also don't have hair in my nose. That's annoying because sometimes i'll be looking down and then a snot will just plop right out. Then I look around like "did anyone see that?". The real issue I’m having right now is that my face is breaking out and I’m not sure why. I think I had an allergic reaction to chocolate last week and the bumps just never went away. Which is weird because in all my years of life I've never been allergic to chocolate.
I’m not really sure about the progress with my hair. I forget about it until I want to wear my hair up, then I’m like “Oh yea, there’s nothing back there”. I notice my hair still coming out a little but it is nowhere near as much as it was when I was doing treatment. I’ve been taking a liquid vitamin that is for hair skin and nails. I’ve noticed my nails growing so fast and they are so strong. I have been told that with my hair, before it was bald, now it has a little bit of peach fuzz. I know I should take pictures of these things but it’s kind of hard to get a good picture of the back of my head. I would also like to have a lot of progress. Maybe like when I’m at an inch or at least so I can gel it up into a ponytail or something. Idk it’s a work in progress.
My ear wax is weird. It is super sticky. If I touch my ear it sticks together. If I clean my hear the wax won’t come out because it’s so sticky. I’m going to the ear doctor next week to see what’s up. Oh, I don’t know if you guys know but I’m super had of hearing in my right ear. It’s been that way for a while now. I’m thinking they are going to put tubes in my ears to drain whatever is in there and to keep it from getting back in. That should be fun *rolls eyes*.
I’ve managed to keep the weight off that I lost. Well I gained like three pounds. I’m walking a lot now just to start off until I can eat regularly. Then I’ll be back in the gym. My sleeping pattern is regular now too. Before when I went to sleep I had so much difficulty waking up. It was SO hard for me to get moving. Once I was up I was fine, but don’t let me fall asleep or it would be bad. Now I’m back to my regular sleep schedule, going to bed late and waking up early. I’ve been on time for work for 19 days in a row! 21 days and that’s a habit. I’m excited about that because during treatment I was not on time for work one day, so it feels good to accomplish that.
These days I’m lookin’ good, and feelin’ better (the picture for this post was taken 2 weeks after I finished treatment). I really owe that all to learning to have patience. That’s one thing that I feel like is essential to have in life. I have definitely gained so much patience over these last 5 months (except with driving. I hate driving in Philly). When I first had my surgery done I thought I was going to hop off of the table, in no pain, like nothing happened. Wrong. When I got my obturator I thought I would be able to eat regularly and sound like my old self. Wrong, again Shondra. When I was doing radiation I thought I would lose weight right away. Wrong, wrong, wrong. All of these things took time to happen. Now I’m healing and I don’t have that sense of urgency for things to change. This applies to my health my life in general. I’m doing what I think will help me heal the most effectively (was that good grammar?) It will happen when it’s supposed to happen. I can’t really give you guys’ advice on how to have patience. It’s something that you yourself have to want to possess. I can tell you this, once you master how to be patient, your life will be a little bit more peaceful. I know from experience *wink emoji*.
Have patience, all things are difficult before they become easy.