Blame the Retrograde

December 27, 2017



I’m the worst blogger on the face of the earth. Now that we’ve got that out of the way, Happy holidays everyone! Tell me how I actually wrote a blog post about two weeks ago and then it deleted *rolls eyes*. Anyways, I wanted to rap to ya’ll about the mercury retrograde real quick. Basically, it’s when it appears as if mercury is spinning backwards. During this time OUR communication is all out of whack. So, if you experienced a falling out with someone, you had issues traveling, a misunderstanding at work, BLAME THE RETROGRADE. I’m going to blame the retrograde for not getting this post out to you all sooner. I had been in a mood and I had no idea why until my friend was like its most likely the retrograde. I looked it up and I was like “OH MY GOSH IT’S THE RETROGRADE”. I know it sounds silly, but I somewhat believe in astrology and that’s what I’m blaming my poor communication skills on. What I did want the message to be on this post though, was, don’t let the retrograde affect your relationships with people. Be mindful of how you are communicating and if someone isn’t communicating effectively with you, don’t trip, because it’s the retrograde. This is probably advice that you could take at any time, even if there isn’t a retrograde.


Okay, let’s move on. My friend came over last night and she’s like “girl, what’s up with your blog? So you cancer free and you not gona update the blog?” With that being said my 2018 goal is to keep you all current on what’s going on with my recovery. Also, if there is anything you want me to touch on PLEASE let me know!


It has now been almost three months since I’ve finished radiation therapy. This time is flying by! When I finished therapy, I had lost sooo much hair in the back of my head. I couldn’t have lost it in the most perfect place because I can wear my hair down and you would never even know that I was bald headed back there. However, I am proud to say that my hair has started growing back. I’m a little upset because the hair on my face is growing back too *rolls eyes*. So here is a video from December 11th, where I was completely bald (don't mind the music in the background, or the messy room).


Now here is a picture of my hair from December 21st.

So this is how the hair fell out, I did NOT cut it like this on purpose. Last year I had an undercut and I had been growing it out, that’s why I have this little tail in the back. People keep asking me what I’m going to do about that. My plan is to just grow my hair until the hair that I lost is to my shoulders and then I’m going to cut it even. But, if my hair looks like SZA’s at that time, I’m going to keep it uneven because her hair is everything, and it’s in the back so I will be able to cover the unevenness.

I’m not really doing much to make it grow. I have an oil by Camille rose, it’s called “Camille Rose Natural Nibs and Honey Ultimate Growth Serum” that I rub on the area that I want to grow. I started doing that as soon as radiation was over but I literally didn’t start seeing results until this month. I’m thinking the cells had to grow back. I was told that my hair will grow back straight, I’m anxious to see if that’s true. I hope it’s not the case, I like my curls.


So from radiation my skin on my face got burned bad. It looked like I tried to contour my face but forgot to blend it.  


























I bought a line called Skin Buttr for my face.

I love the facial products. It came with a face wash, exfoliator, a moisturizing mask, a toner, and moisturizer. I use that every day and I was seeing results after a week. So the marks are almost gone, I do sometimes feel that it’s burned. Like if I touch it, it feels like I’m touching a burn. So, I’m just making sure to moisturize. I actually bought a lot of facial products because I was super self-conscious about what I looked like. I can definitely tell a difference after I use them, but using them too much clogs my pores and then I start breaking out.  

This is what I look like now. As you can see, my sideburns decided they wanted to come back with a vengeance. 


















I lost sooo much weight. This is how I know I lost weight. So I went back to work at T Mobile last week and I went to put on a pair of jeans that I used to ALWAYS wear to work. I haven’t worn them since I worked at t mobile in June. I put them on and my sister was like “you cannot leave the house like that, those are too baggy.” Then my 15 year old sister gave me a pair of her jeans and they fit me perfect. I’m never giving her those jeans back… Ever…. I do want to keep the weight off (who wouldn’t) so as of right now I’m eating right for the most part. I’m still working on my appetite; I’m just not as hungry as I should be.


Overall recovery from radiation is going pretty smoothly except…. I have to get a surgery again! It’s a minor surgery, just getting a tube in my ear. So since august, I have not been able to hear out of my right ear. I went to the ear doctor and they said I had a lot of fluid but there was nothing she could do until after radiation. So now that radiation is over, I have to get the tube. I’m not nervous, this is pretty common. I want to say I got tubes maybe three times when I was a kid. That surgery is scheduled for January 13th.

Along with the tube in my ear surgery, my ear doctor diagnosed me with something called TMJ. Not really sure what it stands for but basically it’s when the muscles in your jaw and around your ear spasm. It causes your jaw to hurt and sometimes it will lock open. I started having the lock jaw issue in the middle of October. It would be so annoying eating and when I go to bite down my jaw would just stop mid bite. That hasn’t happened to me in a while though. I went to see my surgeon a few days before Thanksgiving, he said that I’m healing really well. I told him about the TMJ and he said he wouldn’t declare that for me unless I grind my teeth at night…. *I grind my teeth at night *. So he said for me to get a mouth guard to wear when I go to bed. I got one and I can actually tell a difference when I wake up. My face feels so relaxed.

My voice is coming along… I gueeeessssss…. If you want to check out how I sound just listen to my podcast


That’s all I’ve got for you guys. I don’t really have advice. Just, make yourself happy, keep yourself happy, spread love & joy, make someone smile, I promise I won’t take so long to give you guys an update. Peace <3



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