Hey guys, I'm writing this post from the Philadelphia Airport (I probably won't finish or post it here because I may need some time to sit on it but anyway). Last year I said that I would post every month, but let's face it, you guys are going to get these posts when you get them. I've actually been having a really hard time trying to figure out what it is I'm going to talk about in this specific post. The blog is called From Radio to Radiation, but I've been finished with treatment for over a year. Its been 11 months since I've fully recovered, and I don’t think you guys want to hear one more story about my prosthodontist and the fights we have or the pain that he causes me. So I've thought long and hard aaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddddddd I'm stumped. So I'm just going to write some stuff down that's been on my mind, until they call my boarding group (I'm group 9 so I have a long time ahead of me).
I'm back in the gym (go me) AND I got a trainer. I've been working out with her for a little over a month. I haven't seen the scale move at all but I can see results in the mirror and that makes me happy as hell. I've been wanting to get back in the gym for a while, but I wasn’t motivated at all. My friend Chris actually helped me. He took me to his gym, and its bouje as hell so I thought oh yes, this is the place for me. Then I signed up for a trainer too. They asked me my goals and to be honest I didn’t have any. Like, I want to lose 15 lbs, but I always want to lose 15lbs (honestly, who doesn't want to lose at the most 15lbs?). So I had to think about what my fitness goals are and really, I just don’t want my cancer to come back. Since I've been "healthy" I saw myself going back to my old ways… eating whatever, staying out late, not getting any sleep, and being lazy (the only exercise I would get is walking from my house, to the train, to my job and back). We don't know how I got cancer, but I know that living that lifestyle would not prevent it in any way shape or form from coming back. So, to get out of those bad habits and into better ones, I felt that going to the gym and having a schedule would help me. Not only am I exercising regularly, my trainer also helps me with what to eat as well. As far as going out on week nights, that’s chalked because I'm at the gym haha. Over all I feel better about my lifestyle change. Now, I'm not going to sit here and act like I'm about to be one of those fit chicks on Instagram (I'm eating Chick-fil-A as we speak) BUT I am now consciously making positive and healthy choices to better my life.
With 2018 coming to a close, I'm deciding to make 2019 the year of consciously making positive choices. I'm not only talking about eating right and getting in the gym, but just making choices that will help me prosper as a person. Like really thinking about what I'm doing when it comes to my health, my money, work, relationships, just everything. You guys should decide to do this too. You can make the choice to start or go back to school, get a better job, get a job doing something you actually want to do, studying for a certificate, take on a trade, open a side business like photography, crocheting or making body butter, etc. Maybe you want to make better choices to make you happy. Pick up a hobby, read some motivational books (I'm in love with anything by Andy Andrews right now), start your YouTube channel, visit with friends and family, see the world, and the list goes on and on. Some choices to better our lives may not feel good to make. Maybe you have to find a new job because your job isn't treating you fairly. Maybe you have to end a relationship (friendship or romantic) because that person isn't treating you how you deserve to be treated, or you can't give them what they want from you. Maybe you have to make the decision to move away from your friends and family for a new and better opportunity, or just to see what else is out there. In 2019, whatever choices you make, just be sure they are benefiting YOU positively (this is about you, no one else). And if they don’t, fuck it, you learned from it.
Happy New Year 💕